Redemption (Created)
Sometimes I want to kill myself.
I don't want to cry anymore,
And I don't want to stop the bleeding.
I don't think I can watch as my eyes turn red.
Always looking for some companionship,
Even casting my eyes to god.
Now I know that to god I'll be,
Nothing ever more than thee.
I'll take this blade,
Scrape my wrists before I go to the gallows.
I'll take this match,
Light the stand on fire.
There's release in the flame,
And loss hangs in the noose,
But within the blade hides redemption.
I look away from the skies,
Convincing myself all I heard was lies.
I can't stare at the ground,
Knowing that's where I'll be when the body dies.
All those times I let you look through me,
I hold on to as my own accusations.
The only reason I let you treat me like glass,
Was so I could try to make things pseudo perfect.
But now I've fallen to corruption.
I'm a victim of my dead devotion.
I'm learning absolution.
I've conjured my demise.
I dream of the end,
And washing myself with my tears.
I shall become clean of this world.
I search for love and compassion.
I blow a kiss to you and wave goodbye.
Find a priest for my last rites,
If you think I deserve them.
I call to him,
Your Saviour.
But all I can hope is not to hear,
"Depart from me, I know you not."
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